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Our Infertility Journey

I never thought this would happen to me. I knew a little bit about IVF (In Vitro Fertilization), but I didn't know anyone who personally went through it. I would see things on social media about not asking people when they are going to start a family, but I never saw posts from people who were openly struggling. It seemed almost "hush hush" and I want to break that.
I am struggling with infertility.

Rewind to 2013, I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant with my son Tyrus. I was in an abusive relationship and was taking birth control, so I was baffled. It was because of this that I took extra precautions with Jason because I did not want to get pregnant early in our relationship.

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I stopped taking birth control in November of 2019. I'll be honest, I thought I'd get pregnant right away. We were both 28 years old at the time and in good health. I enjoy some red wine, but Jason doesn't smoke or drink. When we didn't get pregnant right away, I figured we were just bad at timing intercourse. I honestly had to learn about ovulation and how it all works! I knew the basics, but not the timing part 😳  When it still wasn't happening, I figured it was because I gained weight. The struggles continued and I started to beat myself up and blame myself for the weight gain, the lack of fertility, everything. I thought I was finally pregnant in July of 2019, took several pregnancy tests, but every single one was negative. My cycle went from 30ish days to 63 days. I had NEVER had such a long cycle and I was completely heartbroken. This happened two cycles in a row and that's when my friend Courtney suggested I look into PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). I looked up the symptoms and could answer yes to every single one of them.
Irregular periods √
Hormonal cystic acne √
Male pattern baldness (so much hair loss) √
Newly discovered coarse facial hairs √

I took the new information I had learned to my nurse practitioner and she told me that missing a period is normal (it's not for me) and that my weight gain must be due to stress or lack of activity. I decided to seek help from an amazing naturopath by the name of Courtenay Boer. She took my concerns seriously, agreed that my symptoms do relate to PCOS, and then the investigating began.
In December of 2020 I was unofficially diagnosed with PCOS and I started taking myo-insitol immediately. This is the MOST important supplement for PCOS. It regulated my period within the first month!

While all of that was going on I started going to acupuncture weekly for fertility. This also helped my body regulate my cycle and start ovulating regularly. By May of 2021 I was still not pregnant. I was tracking my Body Basel Temperature (BBT) and because of this I knew I was ovulating regularly. I told Jason I'd give him ONE more cycle and if I didn't get pregnant then he had to go for a semen analysis (1.5 years into trying to conceive).

During the first week of July 2021 I had an ultrasound that confirmed PCOS and we also received the devastating news that Jason's swimmers were lacking and what he did have were swimming in circles. He had so little that they didn't even bother doing a count and his motility was not good. I was relieved to find out that I wasn't crazy. My body was finally working and doing what it needed to do, but his swimmers were not good.

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In August I had a phone appointment with a gynecologist (referral was from April before Jason's semen analysis). The gynecologist was so lovely until near the end of the appointment when she asked for my height and weight. Her tone changed immediately upon answering. She told me that I should lose weight before considering having a baby (uh you're nearly 2 years late on that one) and that having a baby at my weight (240 lbs) is dangerous. This left me in tears. Fat women have babies ALL of the time and many of these gorgeous, curvy women conceive naturally. It broke me. I have PCOS with insulin resistance which makes weight gain SO easy and weight loss even more difficult. I have been tryyyyyying to lose weight for the last 3 years and despite my best efforts, the scale continued to climb. This is a whole other story!

We decided to ignore the gynecologist and our focus went from me to Jason. He started taking Mito Motile in August and in November had a repeat analysis which showed his motility had increased, but that's about it.

In December Jason had an appointment with a urologist who told him that he has a production issue and they don't know why. He advised us that we start IVF right away while waiting for the investigation appointments (ultrasound to start).

This news was absolutely devastating to me. I'll be totally honest. We cannot afford IVF. Due to the sperm motility issue, we have been advised that IVF with ICSI is the best route. This is, of course, more expensive. ICSI is where they take the best looking sperm and inject it directly into the egg for fertilization.
What I found out through this process is that wait times for specialty appointments, ultrasounds, and even semen analysis' take way too long. You must advocate for yourself. If your gut tells you something is wrong go for a second, third, or even fourth opinion. I also learned that there is NO provincial or federal funding for infertility treatments. If you're in Ontario or Quebec, you can get one funded cycle, but tough luck if you're out west.

We are looking at a bill of $15-20,000 for one IVF cycle and we now have to figure out how we are going to pay for it.

I've been talking openly about our ongoing struggles with infertility in our VIP group as well as in our Instagram stories. There is also a saved tab on IG with everything I've posted so far.

I hope that by being transparent about our journey it can help the next couple with theirs ❤️ I look forward to the day that I can announce loudly and proudly that I am pregnant. It's going to be a great day 😊
UPDATE! December 23, 2021
I did end up creating a GoFundMe for anyone who wants to help out ❤️

I am honestly blown away by everyone's love, support, and donations! The majority who have donated are customers. This brings real tears to my eyes. I am starting to finally get excited about the idea of IVF. With that being said, we have a phone appointment scheduled for January 15, 2022 to go over our IVF protocol! It's crazy to think that I could be pregnant by April... wow!

UPDATE! January 30, 2022

Our Infertility Journey - Opening Up About Infertility - Male Factor Infertility - Struggling to Conceive - Trying to Get Pregnant - TTC with PCOS - TTC with Male Factor - Newborn Photo Props - Tiny Tot Prop ShopI had an SHG ultrasound on January 20th to make sure there are no uterine problems that may interfere with embryo implantation. Good news! All is good and we can move forward with IVF in 2ish weeks! It is absolutely insane to think that I will (hopefully) be pregnant within the next few months after 2+ years of negative tests and heartbreak. Words truly cannot describe how excited I am.
On another note, a few people have asked why IVF is so expensive and I really don't have much of an answer except that BC lacks funding. Fertility treatments are unfortunately not covered by our regular healthcare. On top of that, there is absolutely no government funding available to couples struggling with infertility in BC (if you're in Ontario or Quebec you get one free cycle, but still have to pay for the meds).
We have to do IVF with ICSI which unfortunately is $1,600 more than IVF. On top of that, there has been a sperm freeze ($800), an ultrasound for me ($250), and once we do an egg retrieval and transfer, they will freeze any remaining embryos ($400). We also don't have extended benefits (and most don't cover fertility drugs anyways) so we will have to pay anywhere from $3,000-7,000 for the fertility drugs. We are hoping with our fingers crossed that it'll be on the lower end. We will find out in the coming weeks! If all things go as expected, I will be starting injections in 2ish weeks!


I cannot thank you enough for your donations. Just last week I had to pay a $500 deposit and $250 for my ultrasound and I could do so without stress thanks to every single one of you!


UPDATE! February 19, 2022
I finished 9 days of stims (gonal f, menopur, and orgalutran) lastnight. I will do the trigger shot tonight and the egg retrieval is scheduled for Monday at 10am! I am BEYOND excited.
The first few days of stims went really well, but everything went downhill once I started taking Orgalutran. I spent a lot of time in bed with raging headaches and the worst fatigue I've ever experienced. I am SO glad that part is done!