On Tuesday May 24th I went for my 15 week ultrasound and found out that our precious IVF baby no longer had a heartbeat. My midwife thinks the baby stopped growing shortly after my last ultrasound 2 weeks prior (around 13 weeks gestation). We had a missed miscarriage in the 2nd trimester. This is a 1-3% chance of happening. We are absolutely devastated This was my worst fear, but I was finally feeling confident that our baby was perfectly fine and was so excited to find out what we were having in a few short weeks (scan was booked for July 4th, my birthday).
The worst part of this horrible nightmare is that we can't afford a frozen embryo transfer... and the thought of going back to "trying to conceive" is agonizing because I know deep down that we can't do it naturally. We are still trying to pay off the $16,000 that we charged to credit cards for our IVF cycle. I just feel like we can't catch a damn break.
I feel so helpless and so desperate. My line of work involves seeing beautiful pregnant belles and newborn babies daily. My website is full of newborn photos. I can't escape it. I also can't take a medical leave because I'm self-employed and therefore don't quality for EI. I have to work. I have no choice. In saying that, if you are able to and would like to donate to our GoFundMe you can do so here: https://gofund.me/34e2daf3
If you cannot afford to donate (trust me, I get it!) you can share it! Every little bit helps. All funds will go towards a frozen embryo transfer in the future. This is our original GoFundMe, but I changed the title and added an update. A frozen embryo transfer is $2,300 + meds. Any additional funds will go towards the IVF debt and any upcoming bills (mortgage and car payments 😳)
This sucks. This sucks soooo fucking badly! I just want my baby 😭😭😭